Took a free online art class with Art2Life. It's not anything that I'd frame and hang on the wall, but it was fun.
Thursday, March 27, 2025
Wednesday, February 12, 2025
Coping Tools Reeling in the Pain
For Illustration Day: Tools
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Coping Tools Reeling in the Pain |
I used to participate in Illustration Friday years ago, but apparently that's no more. I found this site instead, during my search. I like having a prompt every once in a while to motivate me.
Friday, February 7, 2025
Wouldn't it be Great...
Sunday, February 2, 2025
Stuck
Stuck
Lost in the years waited
Lost in tears that were hated
Lost when I should feel free
Free from scorn and guilt
Free from the maze hope built
Where I’ve long wandered aimlessly
Patience has taken a toll
Searching around an empty hole
Only to find prickly regret
So I finally ended it
Thought I finally let go of it
But stuck instead in a cyclic mindset
Wednesday, January 22, 2025
Memory Garden
I was driving the other day and passed by a cemetery called Garden of Memories. The name disturbed me, but I didn't know why. I thought, "the literal side of me is trying to take over," and immediately said out loud, "where the dead are planted."
As I drove further, I realized it probably had more to do with therapy and trauma. I'm stuck living in a cemetery inside my head. Well, at least it's a garden. Weird how we try to make death look pretty.
Sunday, January 19, 2025
Trauma
Trauma
Stuck and stagnant Awkward and shaking
But not really rooted Searching for joy
Nothing’s holding me here I strictly follow rules
Trying to shake free from nothing So that no-one sees my sickness
It ended years ago It started years ago
But every flashback adds I diligently changed my life
Another strand to the complex web Wiggled free from every event
Of rewind and replay But never really escaped
Blood and energy congeal Diet, exercise, and therapy
I curl up in a cobweb cocoon I accomplished more than most
Slip into insomnia sleep Reshaped my mind
And wait for nothing To recover nothing
Wednesday, January 15, 2025
Living a Dream
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Alone in a Crowd |
Dear Mike,
38 years ago we were living a dream
now you’ve been gone for 23
tears still form when I play your songs
now I’m old and still alone
sometimes I feel life has passed me by
but I’ve lived long enough to know
I’m not missing anything…
except you
remember the time you wanted to leave everything behind?
I made you promise to take me with you
many nights I wish you could have
but that was not your call
I haven’t done much since you left me behind
18 years in the health and fitness industry
and I’m so sick, I’m bad for business
remember how no one knew what was wrong?
well, I have a long list of diagnoses now
seizures, autism, Lupus, PTSD with flashbacks,
migraines, vertigo, and severe anxiety disorder
only half are true, but I don’t know which half
on a brighter side, my faith finally feels real
yes, I knew it was real when you were alive
yet I never felt like I belonged
things got awfully dark before I could see
you’ll feel it too when you come back
although I might seem a little different
I’ve lived 14 years longer than you so far
but we’ll be living a better dream then
I live in an RV now, which you’d enjoy
although, you’d make the bed bigger
ok, and the bathtub too
remember that night we froze in our tent?
we could be warm cozy glampers instead
traveling wherever, planting gardens along the way
we’ll stay a few years in each place
making friends everywhere we go
that’s what I’ve been doing since you’ve been gone
no real place to call home
even our house felt estranged
a place for roommates to land
the RV makes moving so much easier
I can take my home with me
6 years with a PO Box address
is as close to home as it gets
the latest PO Box is shared with some wonderful friends
I can’t wait for them to meet you!
this dream feels so real now
I just want to share it with you
Love always,
your Happy Camper wife
Saturday, January 11, 2025
Spiders and Decay
It’s weird. Spiders climbed all night, but their trajectories kept missing the desired lamp lit window, landing instead in a tangle of crystal clear wind chimes lost in the shadows. Iridescent tones gave away their location. No outline of the glass tubes was visible, only the distortion of moonlit silver threads as it magnified the web and then disappeared.
In contrast to their gentle music, the breeze that helped weave this curious scene, was anything but light and peaceful. Heavy with the stench of decay, it carried the story of dead swine laying in the ravine below. Turning to climb the steps back into her RV, she wondered if the spiders were trying to escape it as well. The air inside seemed more sane once she closed the door.
What drove those wild hogs to their death? She knew the locals wouldn’t miss them. Their population had exploded in recent years, causing damage to property and crops. Hunters were having little success culling the herds. The sharp contrasts of the night echoed the imbalances of the world today.
Solitude, peace, clear sky, shadowy music,… decay, sickness, pandemic, mental illness… The howl of a feral cat outside the door sends ripples through randomly drifting thoughts. Wild life is trying to clean up a mess that is too big for all of us.
Monday, January 8, 2024
Sunday, January 7, 2024
Wild Berry Jelly
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Beauty berries |
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Beauty berries |
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Black gum berries |
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Greenbrier berries |
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Greenbrier berries |
Tuesday, February 28, 2023
Foraging
This is spiderwort. The flowers have a really light flavor that seems like a blend of fruit and anise. The leaves have a stronger flavor like kale or broccoli. I've read that spiderwort is supposed to help with allergies.
This is greenbriar. The leaves taste like a cross between green beans and asparagus. It's supposed to have anti-inflammatory properties.
In addition to spiderwort and greenbriar, I put cucumber, onion, spearmint leaves, and sunflower seeds in this salad. For dessert, I put strawberries, blueberries, and juniper berries (also foraged), and local honey in a blender, and then poured it over pecans. Juniper berries are a great anti-inflammatory. I could tell right away after the first time I tried them.
Saturday, December 17, 2022
A Peaceful End...
... to a crazy year.
It hailed three times, two tornadoes, and one month straight of 100+ degrees weather during a drought that brought an onslaught of aphids and their sticky excrement. No rain to wash that syrupy poop off my camper, car, and door steps where it got tracked indoors in spite of hosing things down. Then came the stink bugs to feast on the aphids. They invaded all the campers here in this campground like something from an Alfred Hitchcock movie. They were followed by the Asian Beetle that shouldn't even be on this side of the planet. After a two month long Bugaggedon, my camper was splattered with little yellow stains (from the Asian Beetles) and smelled like a sweaty metal working shop (the stink bugs). I'm not sure who won. I'm still finding their carcasses everywhere.
For the first time in my 3 years of being a full-time RV-er, I was not a happy camper. But, I'm over it now, and these pic show why. They were all taken walking distance from my camper door.
Tuesday, December 13, 2022
Tangled Zen
Tangled behind a trained conscience
That’s holding firm
Good Bye forms cryptic blotches
On a journal page
An intuitive process for what can never
Be read or heard
As I make a conscious effort to deny
My treacherous heart
Zen - a state of calm attentiveness in which one’s actions are guided by intuition rather than by conscious effort
Wednesday, November 9, 2022
Overlapping chapters
Organize. Sort. No time. Just wing it. Gotta keep going... Where's life going? Organize. Sort. No time. Just wing it. Gotta keep going... Where's life going? It never fits neatly into chapters.
Wednesday, October 19, 2022
Monday, October 10, 2022
Today
Sunday, October 9, 2022
Wishes
Thursday, December 26, 2019
Some More from the Doodle Journal
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Twisted Perception |
Twisted Perception
This rock turns in on itself
Parched and no pity
For those God condemns
In a dream
The old man is beaten and stoned
But not dead
I think they were wrong
But it’s my job
To clean up the mess
12-15-19
Tuesday, November 19, 2019
Happy Camper
My life is changing dramatically now. I've left everything behind, bought an RV, and moved to a campground in the middle of the East Texas woods. There are some kinks in my plan that still need ironing out, like internet connection problems and no phone service, but I'm so happy to be away from Houston that these things don't bother me.
I have no address now, though. Does that make me a homeless person?
Monday, November 11, 2019
I Crack Myself Up
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Waiting for Lab Results |
Wednesday, March 20, 2019
I don't do mornings...
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Dialogue Abstruse |
Dialogue Abstruse
Every morning formulates
Dialogue abstruse,
While Logic slumbers.
The to-do list erupts,
Foams chaotically, and
Shouts orders without priority.
The needs-fixing list
Seethes abruptly at
All the defunct remedies.
Then past failures seep in,
Bubbling up random sermons
With no outline or theme.
Reluctant Logic awakens
To the sound of Job’s wife screaming,
“Curse God and die!”
Ulcerated and burnt out,
Logic gathers the toxic spillage
And cries, “Everyone back to bed!”
Monday, January 28, 2019
Doodle Therapy
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Processing Death - colored pencil |
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Regeneration - colored pencil |
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Alienation - ball point pen |
I was talking with a friend about it the next day, and we came to the conclusion that as self employed business owners, we had gotten in the habit of planning everything, including our art. It's been about 5 years since I first started trying intuitive art methods with finger painting, and I'm just now starting to break that habit of planning everything in advance. It amazes me that what I took for granted as a child, has been such a struggle to get back.