Monday, July 16, 2007

Illustration Friday: Discovery

Mrs. Rabbit is discovering that the abuse and rape from her childhood is still affecting her.

Here are some interesting dream image symbolisms.
  • Stairs: changes and transformations, the bottom is the unconscious, the top consciousness, landings are the dreamer's energy centers.
  • Neck: connection between mind and heart.
  • Death: a necessary end has come and there's a need to come to terms with it, or a limit has been reached and the dreamer doesn't know how to go beyond it, or something is dying inside.
  • Dead person: unconscious incidents.
  • Insects: deeply rooted unconscious content, a sign of nervousness and unconscious fears, a warning against living carelessly. [not sure about mating insects, the image just seem to fit the poem below]
  • Rabbit: weak and fearful, needs protection.

Push it in until I choke
Shove it down my throat
To you love is just a jaded joke
On a more intellectual note

Dominate to have your way
Twisting everything I say
Complaining about the way I play
Belittling me where I lay

My fear is just a "cop out"
"For something I don't want to do"
Build a bond that's easily thrown out
Like broken rules in search of truth

Sex isn't that important to love
But can create it without trust
We underestimate the power of
An act that begins with lust

I can't believe I've come back to this
I thought I had gotten over it
After years of marital bliss
I'm like a dog returning to it's vomit


Carol Rose Parker said...

Your imagery is incredibly beautiful, even though it comes from a deep, painful place. The poem is something that helps me understand what that kind of abuse is like. I have a dear friend who was abused in much the same way, and she was able to learn a lot about herself with inner child work, so much so that she went back to school to become a counselor. I really love your style, especially the photographs I've seen on your blog, which is going on my list of favorites immediately!

studio lolo said...

Whoa BlueRose...very powerful stuff. If this is your reality, I hope you find peace and healing.

bluerose9062 said...

Thankyou Carol Rose Parker and Studio Lolo for your encouraging words. After posting this link on IlloFriday, I really regretted it, so your kindness is greatly appreciated.

Carol, I'm currently engaged in a process that's probably similar to what your friend has gone through, which explains the gloominess of my posts lately. Hopefully I'll get through this soon. Blogging has been very theraputic. Thankyou so much for telling me about your friend.

Mary Stebbins Taitt said...

powerful images, both in the art and in the poetry! WOW!

I too am in favor of dreamwork and inner child work--have you done any left hand (or non-dominant hand) drawings or spoken to your inner child about this?

Mary Stebbins Taitt said...

I really like the use of symbols in this picture.

It's important to make symbols your OWN, to talk to them, experience them, remember them, and integrate them.

Have you had any lucid dreams? Can you confront the danger?

bluerose9062 said...

Thanks Mary! I like the left hand idea, but I've not been in the mood for drawing lately. The treatment I'm undergoing right now is called Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing [EMDR]. It's bringing up a lot of emotions that have been put away since childhood, so I guess you could say my inner child is screaming at me.

I'm not sure I know what you mean by lucid dreams. Lately I've been so tired probably from the EMDR, that I'm not remembering my dreams. I did have one with insects that startled me so much it woke me, but I don't remember it.